Well... that sucked.

[katarhol]

There's only one voice in my head now. It's my OWN.

It's like an old friend I haven't heard from in years.

I don't know him anymore.

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[hawk-shay.livejournal.com]

So we'll get to know him again.

Personally, I'm looking forward to it.

[katavatar.livejournal.com]

I hope he's still a guy you like.

[hawk-shay.livejournal.com]

Nothing's made me stop loving you yet and I highly doubt that anything ever will. So I hate to break it to you, Peacock, but you're pretty damn stuck with me.

[katavatar.livejournal.com]

...

You completely sure about that, Magpie?

I... looked through some of the archives there. Couple of times, seemed like you might be ready to move on. With Kord.



I want you to be sure of what you want, here.

[hawk-shay.livejournal.com]

I...

I thought you weren't coming back, Katar.

I waited. And I hoped, but -

A lot happened. And living like that, alone... it just killed me. Ted was there, and he was kind, and he was normal, and...

Gods. I never moved on. Moved sideways, perhaps. You were everything worth a damn in my life, you know that? You were the best thing that ever happened to me. The only really good thing. And lovers - that's just a tiny part of what we are.

Nothing has ever changed or will ever change the fact that you're my soul mate. Understand? I need to talk about this with Ted. But he knows... how it was with us.

I'm afraid of hurting him. Especially when he's been so good to me. And when I do care about him. But.

This is what's right. You and me. This is how it should be. How it should have been.

[katavatar.livejournal.com]

I don't hold it against you, Shayera, don't think that.

I didn't think I was coming back, either.

I'm just... glad someone was good to you while I was gone, and couldn't be good to you myself.

You deserve to be as happy as you can possibly be. And I've been peeled so raw by the Hawk that... I'm just... a bit afraid that I might not be able to live up to how you remember me.

I'm one voice again... but it's changed me. I can't deny it. I feel... harder, inside. Maybe I'm just shellshocked, or traumatized or whatever, but...

Gods, I'm afraid I could drive you away again...

[hawk-shay.livejournal.com]

I don't care.

Devils. You've seen me shellshocked and traumatized. You saw me after... what happened to Jonesy. You saw me after I was posessed by Mar Rhigan and Eclipso, and after Viper...

You're part of me. You're part of my life. You will never, ever not be a part of my life. As a friend, or a lover, or a partner, or... whatever. Dammit, I'm not going to let you shut me out. You don't get to do that this time.

[katavatar.livejournal.com]

...

I didn't plan on it, Magpie.

If my soul is going to be saved from this, it'll happen because you loved me.

...

I've been lost in the other realm for far too long. I want to remember what it's like to get lost in you.

[hawk-shay.livejournal.com]

I know you didn't plan on it, love. That wasn't what I mean.

...Wingman Hol! Are you coming on to me?

[katavatar.livejournal.com]

That's a very distinct possibility, ma'am.

[hawk-shay.livejournal.com]

Well, don't keep me waiting, then.

*she slips her arms around his waist*

I've been wearing black too long. Come take it off.

[katavatar.livejournal.com]

*His eyes widen, and she might be able to feel his heartbeat pick up. It's... been a really long time. And he's got no line that could top that.

When he kisses her, now... it's like discovering her all over again. He clings to her like a lost treasure.*

[hawk-shay.livejournal.com]

*It has been a long time, but Shay has always communicated best with nonverbal language. She practically radiates unconditional love and acceptance.*

[katavatar.livejournal.com]

*And it's a godsend. He soaks it up eagerly, filling in the lost parts of his soul with it, now that he's found his way back to her again.

Everything she remembers about his kiss is there for her once more. The need, the desire, the perfect synch. This is what every person on the planet wants from life. He's been lucky enough to find it... twice, now.*