Well... that sucked.

[katarhol]

There's only one voice in my head now. It's my OWN.

It's like an old friend I haven't heard from in years.

I don't know him anymore.

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[katavatar.livejournal.com]

I don't hold it against you, Shayera, don't think that.

I didn't think I was coming back, either.

I'm just... glad someone was good to you while I was gone, and couldn't be good to you myself.

You deserve to be as happy as you can possibly be. And I've been peeled so raw by the Hawk that... I'm just... a bit afraid that I might not be able to live up to how you remember me.

I'm one voice again... but it's changed me. I can't deny it. I feel... harder, inside. Maybe I'm just shellshocked, or traumatized or whatever, but...

Gods, I'm afraid I could drive you away again...

[hawk-shay.livejournal.com]

I don't care.

Devils. You've seen me shellshocked and traumatized. You saw me after... what happened to Jonesy. You saw me after I was posessed by Mar Rhigan and Eclipso, and after Viper...

You're part of me. You're part of my life. You will never, ever not be a part of my life. As a friend, or a lover, or a partner, or... whatever. Dammit, I'm not going to let you shut me out. You don't get to do that this time.

[katavatar.livejournal.com]

...

I didn't plan on it, Magpie.

If my soul is going to be saved from this, it'll happen because you loved me.

...

I've been lost in the other realm for far too long. I want to remember what it's like to get lost in you.

[hawk-shay.livejournal.com]

I know you didn't plan on it, love. That wasn't what I mean.

...Wingman Hol! Are you coming on to me?

[katavatar.livejournal.com]

That's a very distinct possibility, ma'am.

[hawk-shay.livejournal.com]

Well, don't keep me waiting, then.

*she slips her arms around his waist*

I've been wearing black too long. Come take it off.

[katavatar.livejournal.com]

*His eyes widen, and she might be able to feel his heartbeat pick up. It's... been a really long time. And he's got no line that could top that.

When he kisses her, now... it's like discovering her all over again. He clings to her like a lost treasure.*

[hawk-shay.livejournal.com]

*It has been a long time, but Shay has always communicated best with nonverbal language. She practically radiates unconditional love and acceptance.*

[katavatar.livejournal.com]

*And it's a godsend. He soaks it up eagerly, filling in the lost parts of his soul with it, now that he's found his way back to her again.

Everything she remembers about his kiss is there for her once more. The need, the desire, the perfect synch. This is what every person on the planet wants from life. He's been lucky enough to find it... twice, now.*